Carol's random babble

My mom died this morning.

I'm a master at holding it together. For a while. Every now and then I erupt. It might not take much - but when I reach the tipping point, I just can't help myself. Once, in sacrament meeting, Kent started talking to me in a normal voice while the sacrament was being passed . I kept telling him to wait, but he kept talking. I started getting upset and had to actually walk out while the sacrament was still being passed, so I could go off and cry. Usually, though, it's something like I have asked the girls to do something and asked them and asked them and they just don't do it, and eventually I start yelling and screaming. Or my eruption isn't even related to the problem - but something triggers it and I go off. Sometimes it takes the form of not speaking to anyone (particularly the trigger). I'm pretty good at not yelling since we moved to an apartment building, but I did slam my bedroom door the other day (can't even remember why, just that I was...

Mom in happier days.    Last Thursday I rented "The Hobbit" and took my laptop to the nursing home to watch it with Mom. Since the movie is nearly 3 hours long, I didn't expect to watch the whole thing with her in one day. I watched about 45 minutes there. Mom watched 5-10 minutes (not all at once) and dozed off. I finished watching it at home. On Sunday, I visited her twice. The first time she didn't wake up at all, so I sat and read from my Kindle Fire. The second time, she woke up a bit, and I talked to her, but I don't think she comprehended what I was saying. She tried to say something once, but it was just garbled. The rest of the time she shrugged her shoulders and shook her head. I don't know if it was voluntary or involuntary. When I held her hand, she squeezed my fingers, but I don't think that was voluntary, either. One of the aides said her color wasn't good. I hadn't noticed, except that her arm was red and blotchy (mottlin...

This is something I sometimes have trouble with. I pull a package of meat out of the freezer but don't use it right away when it is defrosted. Then I wonder, what day did I pull that out? Is it still good? Often I end up throwing stuff away because we didn't use it soon enough. This infographic from All You should help: [Source: Daily Savings from All You ] Does that clear things up? I should start labeling things with the date I got them or when I pull them out of the freezer.

I didn't know this boy. My daughter in high school didn't know him, either. He killed himself today. One of his friends made this video. It is worth watching. I really think the video says it all.